I don't know if anyone reads these, but just incase someone does or someody is waiting for me to draw a new picture I have a current update.
     My wife and I had a son in May of this year (2011). A month after he was born we found out he had a very rare condition that made hime get weeker as he got older. Some babies born with this condition get weeker after a few months and die after a few years, but our perfect baby boy started geting weeker and un able to breath after a month. He was in the hospital for almost a month while we took time off work to be with him and the doctors tried to figure out what we could possibly do. There was talk that he could be fine for a few years but he would need a lot of help moving since his muscles were weeked. Although it sounded like a lot of work it was totally worth it... Then it hit us... HARD  He could barly move his body and could not breath with out machines breathing for him.  He slowly died while we prayed for a miracle to happen. In fact for the last 2 hours of his life I held him in my arms telling him he doesnt have to fight it anymore, I could see him fighting for air, I never want to see a person do that again... I've never been very religous, but I begged god to take my son away from this suffering if he couldn't at least make him better... I've had nightmares about my baby dying ever since that day...

    As for the ART related update... I have not been able to draw one damn thing since that day... I have tried a few times and I just can't seem to put the pen or pencil to paper. I have had random ideas i would love to draw, or at least sketch out, but I can't do a fucking thing. Every time I try I just can't focus and if i think of my kids I start to cry. It's pretty hard to draw when you're crying and tears are falling on the paper smearing the image and distorting any lines you have down...
     so I will say this for now, if you have been watching me, waiting for something new or just curious what I've been up to, I will try to get back into one of the few things I love in this world, ART, but I can't promise it will be soon.